User:Marcus Junior/The other me

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Bar aside how I act in the chat ignoring everything I said I can be very serious and thoughtful. Some people think I'm sad most of the time but I'm just thinking mainly!

I may not show it in the chat but I think about a lot of things in my life and most of those who I think are Sad! I think about how stupid I am for not getting better grades and not being able to talk to girls, how weak I am for not being that great in sports, how lazy I am for not doing sports and more things, how sad my life was when I remember all the scars that torment me from my friendless days, how happy this site and 9gag makes and that I wont be able to visit as often, how I miss everything important that happens around here!

With that in mind my only wish of any time would be to go back to the first grade with the mentality I have today!

I would go back and buff me up, get used to studying, confess to the girl I like as soon as she entered school in 2nd grade, do what I wished to do but never was abbe to, basically do whatever I forgot or couldn't do till the moment I'm writing this!

View of life
Another thing that I think about is life itself! Why do we exist? Why do planets exist and stars? Is there such thing as a creator and if yes why did he create us? Was this all random or for a reason? Tough I'm not sure at all this is what I think!

Animals, plants, rocks, water, stars, nebulas, black holes, and everything exists for no reason at all, why would it have? Why would anything exist? how would be reality without anything at all? There's no reason at all for our existence so why do we exist? Cause people are searching for the meaning of life and not the reason!

Life has no meaning and why would it? The only reason anything exists it's simply cause it's beautiful! Beauty is not that far fetched if you think about it everything is beautiful! As someone once said: "Art is not something you can only see with your eyes, it's something you smell, feel, flavor, hear, one of those will allow you to understand the beauty of it!"

Doesn't matter how much you think your ugly somewhere in the world someone will like you for your personality, talent, looks, smell, one of those thing. If not a person then possibly a dog will love you who cares what it is that will find you beautiful as long as you are! Everything is beautiful in their own way even thins such as poop is fragrant to flys and other insects, other insects lie flies look tasteful to lizard which some humans think are beautiful!

Every landscape is beautiful in at least one persons view, music and paintings too, they might not be alive but their beautiful in their own accord to someone!

In essence life only exists cause it's beautiful and makes something happy! An there's no other reason beyond that! Why would there be anyways life is something you live to your fullest otherwise you won't be happy! Give life a chance to show you beautiful things and you'll feel the greatest sensation of them all: happiness!

I may not be the prettiest person alive thanks to my acne scars, nor the one with the best smell but if I managed to make one person happy even if by a fraction then my reason to live has been fulfilled

So to everyone who has read this hope you see me in a different light now!